GOD.. Please help me.. why must i be like this?? why must i always be in this?? Why,why,why?? wad have i done to deserve this?? please help me god.. Am i cursed to be like this?? who is right and who is wrong?? show me something god.. please.. Im really feeling very fucked up right now till the point what feeling im going through now.. please.. Am i being tested?? for how long?? Shld i be angry?? depressed?? disappointed?? what?? what?? please.. how much longer will i have to take this?? huh?? 2 years?? 4 years?? 10 years?? my whole lifetime?? Can anyone help me?? i doubt so..