Your True Birth Month Is January

Loyal Social Logical Easily jealous Loves children Rather reserved Highly attentive Likes to criticize Needs close friends Ambitious and serious Smart, neat and organized Hardworking and productive Loves to teach and be taught Quiet unless excited or tensed Sensitive and has deep thoughts Knows how to make others happy Searches for the greatest romance Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds Romantic but has difficulties expressing love Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses

Your Birth Month is July

Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker. You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life. Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart Your gemstone: Ruby Your flower: Larkspur Your colors: Green and red

U can say that i'm a very lonely person..
always keeping to myself..
even i don't have a big circle of frens..
im picky ah..
those close to me knows me well enough to know how i work and wads happening in my life..
By my tone and attitude its very easy for people to know what sort of mood i'm in right now..
but i don't disclose everything to my close frens..
i still keep certain things to myself..
i trust a very selected group of people..
and the # doesn't even reach 10.. that's for sure..
this is the group of people that i would take a bullet for them..
if ever there is a need to..
That's how much they are treasured by me..
and im nt sure if they even know the lengths i would go to jus to help them in their times of need..

But in my times of need, i dun really mind facing it alone cos i dun mind and it helps me to better my tinking..
exposed to the harsh reality somewhere 2 years back..
but after 6 mths of coldness of a frozen hell i was brought up to cloud nine when i met the special someone..
we have gone through our share of bumps,humps and tumbling down..
It has got me to where i am now..
After going through so much, i thought i would be able to understand and adapt to things easier but i was mistaken..
what people say is true "time will never stand still"..
how i wish sometimes that it would jus stay and never move on ahead..
Life has much more in store for me and its time for me to begin learning and adapting again.. Work and life has opened up more different setting that are relatively new to me..
Will things go smooth or is it gonna be a bumpy windy road to the finish line??
What else has "he" in store for me??

Fuck.. Didn't sleep the whole night yest.. too bz @ wrk.. Brain's fried right nw.. dun tink be sleeping nw too.. hmm.. maybe that's the reason im fucked nw.. oh well.. dun care.. bye

GOD.. Please help me.. why must i be like this?? why must i always be in this?? Why,why,why?? wad have i done to deserve this?? please help me god.. Am i cursed to be like this?? who is right and who is wrong?? show me something god.. please.. Im really feeling very fucked up right now till the point what feeling im going through now.. please.. Am i being tested?? for how long?? Shld i be angry?? depressed?? disappointed?? what?? what?? please.. how much longer will i have to take this?? huh?? 2 years?? 4 years?? 10 years?? my whole lifetime?? Can anyone help me?? i doubt so..